Miss Amber's Thoughts

Thoughts...

2010-08-06T22:21:00.000-07:00

You know I often am confused with myself. I don't understand why I do the things I do, or why I am the way I am. Seems lately a lot of that has to do with things occupying my mind. As I move forward though, I start noticing things and I start getting regrets. So to all of the people I have hurt, in some shape or form the past year, or ever for that matter, I send my sincere apologies. I wouldn't be who I am without my amazing family and friends supporting me and being there for me through everything, I'm blessed to even call you a friend, you really have no idea how much many of you mean to me. You make me smile. You make me laugh. You are there for me when I need a friend. You remind me to never give up. And I have to say, one of the greatest feelings in the world is the fact that YOU believe in me. I come close quite often to give up on my dreams, but then I'm reminded of all the people that believe in me, and I feel just overwhelmed, if often brings tears to my eyes.
So this is for everybody that has believed in me, everybody that has cared about me, everybody that has brought a smile to my face, and everybody that loves me. I cannot thank you enough. From the bottom of my heart, I truly love every single one of you.
xoxo Amber

Jealous much?

2010-05-31T22:00:00.000-07:00

Wow... this seems to be SUCH a strong subject anymore. It makes me really sad that it's gotten to the point that I don't tell many people about my experiences with music, because I KNOW at least one person will be jealous enough to ruin that for me. It's happened... quite a few times. It annoys me almost as much as those self-centered people... and you wanna know the crazy part?! They act like they're not doing anything wrong when inside it is breaking you down and tearing you apart. BUT being who I am - I just put up with it. I don't know why I do, but I do. I'm a good person - and I get taken advantage of quite a bit. It's like people don't ASK me anymore.. I am so nice... they expect me to do something for them just automatically. People. I have feelings too. YOU are not in control of my life, I am. I'm just so done... done to the point I wish sometimes I wasn't a nice person. That's not who I am.. that's not how I raised... I'm so disappointed in people right now. It just bothers me.

Part 2: Country Fans?

2010-04-17T21:10:00.000-07:00

So, I promised I would be back with an update after the Justin Moore concert last night. And I will tell you, I was proven some things regarding my last blog. The biggest one being the respect between an artist and a fan. Sometimes I wonder if people truly understand what respect is. So, here you go - this is the best definition I found of what respect is - "an attitude of admiration". Last night, I seen it with my own eyes. Justin hung his hat up on the mic stand, trusting those fans surrounding him and pushing up against the 1 foot high stage to leave his hat alone. No, a fan, reached out, and took his hat. That.. is NOT respectful. When the hat was finally returned to Justin, the brim of the hat was bent out of shape. I think that ruined the concert for everybody. When artists are not treated with respect, the chances of them returning to a place or venue are quite slim. True, most of the people at the show were standing, screaming, teenage boys and girls, it shouldn't matter. I was surprised though, yet at the same time I was also thankful of being who I am. They were pushing.. they were shoving.. they were all out of control, making it less enjoyable for the fans who wanted to enjoy a good concert. I just want to send my apology to Justin, not all country music fans around here are like that. I promise. I'm not, I was upset for you. I think my whole group I was with were very upset that somebody would even do that.

Last night was VERY disappointing - I am not going to lie. Justin Moore put on a great show, but the fans made it hard to truly enjoy it. *shakes head* They proved everything in the 'concerts' section of my last blog... and I mean EVERYTHING. The only difference was, they were actually standing.. but.. pushing people in wheelchairs out of the way so they couldn't see was NOT happening for me... c'mon people. That is not what being a true country fan is about.. get some manners.

I know, I'm just a girl.. but a girl with strong opinions, and a girl who knows that she is not the only one that feels this way.

Country fans?

2010-04-16T10:54:00.001-07:00

The chances of people getting agreeing with me are high in this blog, but there are higher chances of people being mad at me over it too. So I'm saying from here on out- it is my opinion and my opinion only. I am not associated with anybody -- and I will also tell you, I'm one of the sweetest people you will ever meet, I get told that at least once everyday, I also am a diehard country music fan. I just think some people go far too with an artist... I know, I know, I will confess one or more of these I'm sure I've been guilty of sometime in my life and I might be guilty of it still. They're just things I observe each and everyday in this country music lovin' world that we live in.

Twitter: Artists not answering or following back - Yes, Yes, Yes, before I start I already know I'm fully guilty of this one. I was so upset when Joe Nichols unfollowed me on Twitter, but, I've gotten over it. (sorta kinda.. lol) And on that case, I'm going to stop before I get myself on a rambling streak. But, my point is, these artists are more busy then you know. I know you enjoy when they follow back or reply, I get excited when I get replies. My take on the whole thing, be thankful they even use Twitter and be thankful for the tweets that we do get. Remember a time when we had no Twitter, no clue what was going on in an artists life, and were left wondering? Yeah. Now we have that. Don't take it for granted - you might lose the opportunity all together. If it wasn't for Twitter, I wouldn't even probably know some of the artists that I am thankful to know now. So remember that when you want to get upset at artists on Twitter.
Concerts: Okay, I am speaking from concerts I have been to in the Pacific Northwest - mainly Oregon and Washington. From what I hear, it's not really like this in other places. Correct me if I'm wrong? And can I just first start off by saying DON'T SIT AT A CONCERT. Thank you, now that I have got that off my chest. Let me explain to you my views on this - "I see your point of view, I see it greatly, I understand I'm blocking your way, but, listen to me for a change. It's not always about you. I don't care if I'm the only one standing. Look around though, I'm not. You just think I am. When my favorite artist is onstage, I stand up to show my support for that artist. As a friend has once told me, if you're sitting down, the artists don't feed well off of that. Artists do put a better show on when they know that the crowd is enjoying it. Just sitting there... like a lump on a log... does nothing. Get up, dance, enjoy it. Quit ruining it for others who do want to enjoy it. Yeah yeah, don't even throw it back at me." Secondly, I want to say don't be disrespectful. Doesn't matter if it's to an artist or to a fan. There are limits at concerts, and you can only push those limits so far. It's the fans that determine whether an artist comes back to the area or not - I heard awhile back that somebody had the nerves to up and steal Justin Moore's guitar - now THAT is pushing limits way too far. Like really, respect other fans and respect the artists, that'll make things so much easier. This respect thing also comes with alcohol, I've had beer spilled on friends and I before at concerts. I am not of age, yet, the venue still sold beer. And if I had been caught, I would've been in trouble. Yet, I wasn't drinking. That's what's upsetting.

... that's all I have for right now, I am off to see Justin Moore tonight. I'm sure I may have more to report on this case when I get back, lots of thinking time while driving. Be back later peeps -- behave yourselves. lol. ;)

Recap of the past few weeks -

2010-04-12T21:16:00.000-07:00

I haven't blogged in awhile, the past few weeks have been crazy busy fun musically I've been to three concerts in the past few weeks. Two of those being 94.1 KMPS Studio 941's and the other was the big concert of the decade, George Strait, Reba and Lee Ann Womack.

It started on Wednesday, March 24th. I was informed of a Studio 941 with Tyler Dickerson in Auburn. Let me tell you, I'm very glad I went. I got to reconnect with an old friend, and hear some good music as well. Tyler is as sweet as can be, greeted me with a warm hug. Oh, and did I mention one of my favorite people in the whole world was there? Yes. He is playing with Tyler now. One of my favorite guitarists, Brian. I was thrilled. I missed seeing him. Check out Tyler's new single "Tell Your Sister I'm Single" and visit his website at www.tylerlovesradio.com

Saturday, March 27th, the big day at the Tacoma Dome. George Strait. Reba McEntire. Lee Ann Womack. Enough said, eh? That was THE best concert I have ever been to. We started out hittin up the Seattle Wolf pre-party [I was not a Wolf fan ~ and I only like Wing Nut now], I was excited to see Tyler Dickerson again. Well yeah, Tyler ;) Haha. Okay okay confession time, I wanted to see Brian again. But anyways, we also got Meet and greet passes for Lee Ann Womack from her social club ~ You can join @ www.lawsocialclub.com and enter 'Amber Burkman' as your referral if you would like - that would be me! It's FREE! And Lee Ann Womack is amazing and so sweet and genuine. I couldn't say enough good things about her. And Oh My Gosh. George Strait. I made my way to the floor during the concert ~ and he looked me directly in the eyes and paused. Talk about fainting. Have mercy. I was in complete awe. I have been looked in the eyes directly by George STRAIT. The KING. Okay. I will stop now. I was just in awe. Overall ~ amazing concert. Amazing. Amazing. Amazing.

Then, this past week, was Spring Break. Tuesday evening I got a text, from a very dear friend of mine, Pat. She had asked me to join her at the Studio 941 in Seattle to see Benton Blount. Wow. What a down to earth guy. He sang several of his new songs, this was his first ever radio tour. We're even friends on Facebook! Who knew!! After performing, he sat and talked with Pat and I. It was a good time and a good chat with him. And I have to say ~ he has the best tattoo EVER. :)

For more information about Benton: www.myspace.com/bentonsmusic

This Friday, I am off to another adventure at the Justin Moore concert at the Puyallup Spring Fair. I am excited. Oh and I will be 18 next week!!!!! :D

Peace out my tweeples and peoples!!
Love y'all!

xoxo Amber

I never will understand..

2010-03-15T23:15:00.001-07:00

Some times there are things I will never understand, here are just a few:

- Why can’t I move on?
- Crushes on best friends are the worse.. why do they happen even though you agreed to “just friends” , sometimes I feel like we both wish there was more.. but there never will be.
- Not to sound desperate… but… I wish I had this guy in my life that I could turn to for comfort and all that “stuff”, you know? I had that.. but back to the crush thing. [ain’t it funny how it all ends up being back about him?]
- What happened? That’s one thing I will never understand, one day we’re close, and I’m being told how much I really mean to somebody, and then the next I am being completely thrown out of their life? Whatever… maybe it never was worth my time.
- Nashville… oh how I miss thee… to the point where I’ve spent far too many nights crying, because that’s the only place I want to be.
- I don’t fit in here. Nobody understands. They say they do, but in the long run, they truly don’t. I get told ALL the time. “I feel your pain”, “I know how hard this for you”, “It’s not always greener on the other side”. In my eyes, right now, it is. I need a fresh new start…

In conclusion, at this point. I don’t understand life. I don’t understand why things are going this way, at one point, I believed that I was being thrown these struggles to show how strong i REALLY am, but lately, it’s getting harder and harder to handle. I just want to be happy again. I leave you with a picture, a picture in which I've been happiest, and that was at a Joe Nichols concert in Ridgefield, Washington. My family, my friends and, my favorite singer/band of all time… I <33 them boys.

(Joe Nichols and Amber – Ridgefield, WA – 08.05.08)

03.07.2010

2010-03-07T21:56:00.000-08:00

Soooo... it's almost 10pm. I should be asleep - but I can't sleep. I have so many things going on in my head, it's crazy business.. sooo. I'm making a list, to try and help me get them off my mind.

- Vote for Chris Young for the ACM Vocalist - seriously, see this awesome banner I added to the top of the page. I wouldn't do that for just anybody.. I really wanna see Chris win it.

-I wish I was in Nashville... I think I left my heart there when I was there. 'cause to be honest, that's where my heart is. I miss it terribly.

- Some fans are seriously crazyyyy... seriously. They scare me.

- I miss seeing Joe Nichols and his amazing band... like badly.

- Total freak out when "Chillin" came on the radio tonight - word!

- I haven't written a song in awhile. Maybe it's just 'cause I'm confused.

- and last but not least, I have an awesome friend back, and I'm glad :)

Just some random thoughts.. I think my next blog is gonna be a quiz. ya know. I'm bored like that. :\ hope this finds anybody who actually takes the time to read my blog well.